I am the queen of never being in the photo. My comfort zone is well and truly behind the lens. And I’m going to bet that you are exactly the same and most probably for the same reasons. Your hair isn’t perfect, there’s puke/snot/remnants of food on your clothes lovingly placed by one or more of your children, you never got a chance to put your make up on and oh yeah…you’re not your ideal weight yet!
I get it!
After I had my second little boy we booked a wonderful newborn photographer for a baby shoot. He was 11 days old. I was still bruised and swollen and I was still wearing maternity everything (there was nothing yummy mummy about the look I was rocking in any way).
I asked her to take one photo that made me look like a Mum. In the two and a half years since having my first I'd realised that I barely had a single photo of me with my first little boy. I'd always avoided it for all of the reasons above.
How sad is that. My little boy has thousands of pictures of himself as a baby, hundreds with his Dad and other family members and no more than three with me.
When I think back to my own baby photos I used to love poring over them and seeing what everyone looked like at the time. Not once have I picked up a photo from when I was little and said, ‘Wow, Mum must not have put her make-up on that day.’ When we were children we didn’t even see these things about our parents. Your children don't see them about you either.
You're just you.
I really don’t enjoy being in front of the camera. But something about missing that first few years made me really think about what I was doing by always refusing to be in the frame. I want my boys to be able to look back on our time and see us all together, soiled clothes, messy hair and all.
Our newborn photographer took a side on, close up photo of me and my baby touching noses. It is without a doubt the single most precious photograph I own.
Photo credit: Simply Baby by Nicola
And do you know, it’s definitely getting easier to hand over my camera and get in front of it. I might not always like myself in the pictures but they’re not for me.
How many other things do we do for our kids that are completely selfless?